Diana's So-Called Life

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Wed, 06 Sep 2006 02:29:40 GMT

1. Would you marry for money?
not unless extreme need

2. Have you had braces?
yep

3. Could you live without a computer?
yea, would take some getting used to

4. If you could live in any past time period, where would it be?
60s

5. Do you drink enough water?
recently yea

6. Do you wear shoes in the house or take 'em off?
take 'em off!

7. What are your favorite fruits?
kiwi probs

8. What is your favorite place to visit?
home

9. Are you photogenic?
somewhat

10. Do you dream in color or black and white?
usually color

11. Why do you take surveys??
sometimes im just in the mood

12. Do you drink alcohol?
yea

13. What is the most beautiful language?
sign

14. Do you like being kissed when you are asleep?
depends who is doing it

15. WHAT do you like MOST:
woa, i have to choose one thing!?! how bout love, there we go

16. Do you want to live until you're 100 yrs old?
not unless im still with it

17. Is a flat stomach important to you?
i mean, its not one of the most important things in life

19. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights switched on or off?
lights off, yes yes

20. Do you believe in magic?
dont think so

22. Do you like to watch cartoons?
rarely

23. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus was not real?
3 or 4. i was a little skeptic

24. Do you write poems?
yea

25. Do you snore?
nope

26. You sleep more on your back, front,or sides?
back as im falling asleep then side

27. Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler?
rottweiler

28. Are you basically a happy person?
at this point, yes

29. Are you tired?
yea

30. Did you drink anything with caffeine today?
i dont think so

32. How many landline/cellphones do you have in your house?
my dorm? one of each

33. Do you get along with your parents?
thats a complex and multileveled q. yes and yes and no and yes and no and yes....

35. Do you have a kitty?
no

36. Have you ever had a birthday party?
uh huh

37. What do you do when you're sad?
cry or write or complain to someone or sleep

38. What do you need most now?
sam to be here. that would really help.

39. What song are you listening to now?
my jams playlist

40. What are you craving right now?
sleep and cuddling and oaklands

NOW FOR PART 2:

1. Initials:
DLR

2. Name someone with the same birthday as you:
ashley bennett's mom

3. For or against same sex marriage?
love is love. its silly that should even be a question.

4. Are you allergic to anything?
mildly i think

5. Are you bisexual?
dont think so

6. Have you ever slept in someone else's clothes?
yea, always lovely

7. How many U.S. states have you been to?
not sure, at least 12

8. How many of the U.S. states have you lived in?
3

9. Have you ever lived outside the US?
nah

10. Name something physical you like about yourself.
my lips

11. Something non-physical you like about yourself.
i feel things deeply

12. Do you have any pets?
pippin at home, and a snake...

13. What is your dream car?
silver VW bug weee

14. If you could go anywhere in the world where would you go?
amsterdam

15. Are you bipolar?
dont think so, pos

16. Who is the last person you spoke too?
my suitemates

17. Where would you want to go on a first date?
i like random spontaneous first dates that go with the personality of the person im with

18. Would you date the person who posted this before you?
grace? no, sorry

19. Has anyone ever sang or performed for you personally?
sure

20. Ever been kissed under fireworks?
not sure...?

21. Do you like president Bush?
helll no

22. Have you ever bungee jumped?
no

23. Have you ever white water rafted?
yes

24. Has anyone 5 years older than you ever hit on you?
sure

25. Are you racist?
not more than i can help

26. What's your favorite song at the moment?
hmm one is hard

27. What was the last movie you watched?
seven

28. Where was the last place you went besides your workplace or house?
uhh im at hamilton, we pretty much just go around hamilton. yea its lame

29. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else's property?
no

30. have you ever hit anyone of the oposite sex?
yea

31. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
aura

32. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
grande caramel light frap (its sad that we all know how to answer this q)

33. Say something totally random about yourself...
i miss ruffles

34. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
uh dont think so, not besides sports players (i know weird right?)

35. Do you have freckles?
a few

36. Do you wish you were somebody else?
not very often

37. How tall are you?
5'7

38. Do you speak any other language other than English?
no, wish i did

39. Have you ever ridden in a limo?
negative

40. Has anyone you were really close to passed away?
no i suppose not, how close is close

41. Do u watch TV?
not much

42. What's something that really annoys you?
elitists

43. What are some things you really like?
30 degree snowfalls,loving kisses, big dogs, listening to music while drawing, ideas, time, making connections, anything lavendar, sleeping in, sprinklers, late night hours, cobblestone, people who tell it like it is, text messages, hot tubs, etc.
i have pages and pages of lists of my fav things

44. Do you like Michael Jackson?
no

45. Have you ever surfed?
no (haha i thought that said have you ever stuffed)

46. Do you know how to pump gas?
yea but i suck

47. What do you drive?
nada

48. What's the latest you have ever stayed out?
all night

49. Have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die?
Yes

50. Were you ever rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room?
yes (was i rushed? i dont remember)

51. Have you ever been dared to do something you didn't want to do?
who hasn't? isn't that the point?

52. What's your favorite state to live in?
california

53. What color is your hair?
brown with some reddish residue

54. What color are your eyes?
brown

55. Favorite non-alcoholic drink?
water or milk

56. Favorite city?
oakland or SF

57. Have you ever ridden a mechanical bull?
no haha

58. If you were working on a pirate ship, what would you most likely be?
deck hand i guess

59. Who do you live with?
carrie, lilian, dane, april, and meg weeee

60. Last thing you watched on TV?
veronica mars

61. Do you wear glasses or contacts?
no but i should

62. Have you ever taken a road trip?
many

show me where the sun comes through the sky...

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 06:53:53 GMT

why am i still up?? i dont even know what time it is in my head, somewhere between cali time and ny time. mmm, time...

i havent written in helllof long cuz ive been crazy busy and plus its been too daunting to even try to explain my life to you all.

somehow the last solid month of my summer was spent with sam, minus a few hours here and there. right after i last wrote, sam got kicked out of his nashville band and moved back to oakland and that changed everything. it was suddenly sam and diana facing life together, day and night. he got close to my family and i got close to his and he and i got to know each other like the backs of our hands (awkward) and, never could i have predicted it, we're in love and all sappy and fucking rediculous. its wonderful.

we're planning on living together after i graduate and marriage is discussed and what the hell happened to future-phobic-me!

anyway, you know its a great summer when it ends with a tearfull goodbye with a boy at the airport. he said after he dropped me off he went home and crawled into bed with his dad who held him as he sobbed :( this is a boy who hasnt cried since dealing with his mom dying when he was ten. thats a powerful sign to him and he's not ready to let that go. SO, long distance relationship, here i come! its worth it to me right now, though. to be loved like he loves me is something i never even thought was possible. maybe its cuz im his first love... thats a powerful thing. i just wish i didnt have to leave him.

but school will be good this year. im really looking forward to my living situation and seeing everyone again and actually appreciating the final year rather than feeling trapped in an endless timeless subzero middle of nowhere haze. yay, hamilton! haha. no, its gonna be a good time this year, i can feel it. there are a lot of good things about hamilton, and those are all i intend to focus on this year. fuck the rest.

lalala, it must be time for bed. night, lovely people

sooo apparently i use livejournal again

Tue, 30 May 2006 08:04:45 GMT

so, on sunday we had a welcome home/ memorial day BBQ @ my house. my front yard was full of great food and even better people all afternoon. happy diana. i was supposed to go on a double date/ hangout thing with kelli and her bf and vernon that night, but sasha happened to be driving up to santa cruz for the night and asked me to come along, which i ended up doing. fabulous choice! i got go on a mini road trip with sasha in her convertable and be goofy and talk about sex and then spend the night and today with julianne in her hotel-dorm-room and meet her incredably sweet bf and go to the bars and hang out by the pool and blow a lot of money in wonderful downtown santa cruz, etc. it was great, just got back. I LOVE CALIFORNIAAAAAAA

follow up to last nights entry

Sun, 28 May 2006 04:03:51 GMT

so that guy vernon who i met last night sent me the following message today:

Yo it was nice meeting you yesterday,I told "k" hook it up but it's on you !You're cute and you seem hella cool like the kind of girl Ineed hit it up 4 sho and stay cute!

whyy is it that i cant meet one fucking guy at hamilton college but whenever im home i can find somebody within hours??! its cool though, im excited

321 pointless fun

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 14:48:42 GMT

9 lasts:
-last place you were on vacation: nyc
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-last cigarette: late friday night, although some california skateborder stole it
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-last beverage: coffee
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-last movie: Harry Potter, fuck yea
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-last phone call: mommy
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-last text: grace
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-last cd played: weezer blue
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-last bubble bath: tooo long
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-last time you cried: good question... sometime last week

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8 have you evers:
-have you ever dated someone twice: yea
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-have you ever been cheated on: yea
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-have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: yea
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-have you ever fallen in love: yea
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-have you ever lost someone: yea
~~
-have you ever been depressed: yes
~~
-have you ever been drunk and thrown up?: yea

~~~~~
7 states you've been to:
1. california
2. Hawaii
3. Oregon
4. new york
5. navada
6. florida
7. massachusittes

~~~~~
6 things you've done today.
1. hit the snooze like 8 times
2. went to class
3. tried and failed to make a waffle, ate waffle bits
4. stared at the accepted students and hoped they'd know not to come here
5. contemplated the value of objective thought
6. missed people

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5 favorite things
1. Family
2. Friends
3. cuddling
4. conversation
5. kissing

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4 people you can tell pretty much anything to
1. sarah
2. meg
3. julianne
4. jonah

~~~~~
3 favorite colors coordinations to wear
1. pink and green
2. pink and black
3. brown and peach

~~~~~~~~~
2 things you want to do before you die
1. love more people more purely
2. oh, you know, figure out the nature of existance

~~~~~~~~
1 Reason to live
1. because this is it, this is our chance to exist, to experience and learn and create and love. what could be more beautiful than that?

my secret: these things are actually really fun

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 02:12:38 GMT

FIRSTS...

1. Who was your first prom date?
Dylan Law

2. Who was your first roommate?
Courtney O' Denning

3. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk the first time?
beer beer lots of beer

4. What was your first job?
preschool teacher

5. What was your first car?
nada

6. When did you go to your first funeral?
like early elementary school

7. How old were you when you first moved away from your hometown?
piedmont: 13, oakland: 18

8. Who was your first grade teacher?
Mrs. Twoe

9. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane?
dont recall

10. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with?
Suskia Hyde!

11. Who was your first Best Friend and are you still friends with them?
my neighbor chris at my berkeley house, and no

12. Where did you live the first time you moved out of your parents house?
Ham college

13. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day?
Sarah Rippy

14. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or a groomsmen?
never been one. i was a flower girl in both my parents' second weddings, though!

15. What is the first thing you do in the morning?
hit the snooze button

16. What was the first concert you ever went to?
The Rolling Stones with mi madre, or maybe Elton John was before that?

17. First tattoo or piercing?
peircing: ears, tattoo: heart

18. First celebrity crush?
Leo

19. Age of first kiss?
14

20. First crush?
Patrick Castles

21. First time you did drugs?
Sophomore year of highschool

22. first real boyfriend/girlfriend?
Dylan Law

cuz im sick and dont have the energy for much:

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 00:48:37 GMT

SURVEY TIME!

1. Do you have anything thing that glows in the dark?
yes, penis straws (im serious)

2. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?
lights off

3. Do you like to be bitten?
um sometimes

4. Do you buy Band-Aids?
yea, i actually did the other day how random

5. Do you tend to live in the past or present?
past

6. Do you watch ballet?
no cant say i do

7. Do you believe in magic?
depends how u define it

8. Have you ever had surgery?
nothing major

9. Do you know which signs in the zodiac you are compatible with?
eh

10. Do you know what gelatin is made out of?
yea, if the rumors are correct

11. Do you have nightmares frequently?
no

12. Do you worship celebrities?
no

13. Do you know any gang members?
maybe

14. Do you like your nose?
yea its pretty good

15. Would you feed a dog under the table?
oh yes :)

16. Do you like abstract art?
yea i do

17. Do you think you can draw?
yea decently

18. Do you listen to music daily?
all the time

19. Which sense would you give up if you were forced too?
taste (80% of what we perceive as taste is actually smell anyway, and smells are correlated with memory which is too cool to give up)

20. Do you think you create your own reality?
yea i think so, at least more than we tend to think

21. Do you snore?
no

22. Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides?
i start on my back and then turn when im about to fall asleep

23. Do you like the idea of breast implants?
nope

24. Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler?
rottweiler

25. Do you lick stamps?
only the onest that require it....

27. What disease do you fear the most?
cancer

28. Do you pray?
sometimes

29. What do lemmings do?
that whole mindless following thing

30. Do you want to be baked in a pie?
no not really, but i would like to be baked and have a pie

31. Do you use an electric can opener?
no

32. Do you have a lot of endurance?
sometimes

33. Have you ever gone river rafting?
yea, its one of my fav things

34. Have you ridden in a hot air balloon?
yea :) pretty pretty

35. Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?
emotional (even physical pain is only as bad as it is bc it comes with fear, i think... then again, ive never experienced severe physical pain)

36. Do you have live plants in your house?
yea

37. Do you think balding men should shave their head?
what! we're dictating hair styles now?

38. Do you know anyone who is clinically depressed?
yea

39. Do you think marijuana should be legalized?
of course.

personality test thingy

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 02:42:46 GMT

Your personality stands out from the average person's particularly in the areas of:

* Your High Curiosity Level
* Your Low Emotional Reactivity Level
* Your High Multi-tasking Ability
* Your High Need for Variety
* Your High Empathy/ Sensitivity Level

wow! diana is posting!

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 22:09:34 GMT

happiness doesnt come easily anymore. im not sure it ever really did, though, but something has changed. the world isnt giving me anything to lean on, i guess thats the difference. it used to be that my little world might fall apart but the greater world kept on going and i had blind faith in it. now that crutch is gone.

i was walking to class today listening to my headphones and thinking about my desire to ask "why" about everything and to make moral judgments, and i tried to imagine what it would be like to observe without judging, and suddenly all of the people walking by me made me want to smile uncontrollably. by the time i got to soc i was all smiles! luckily meg vw was too, so we just smiled together and it was lovely.

but objective observation is not the answer. i cant maintain that mindset; its not who i am. im always wondering what motivated people to do things and what the underlying problems are that create suffering in individuals and society etc. plus, sean's mind is much more cut out for objective observing and yet he's depressed all the time anyway. its not the key to happiness, but its a good exercise for me.

so what IS the key to happiness for me? during class i had some ideas and wrote them down. (ps im attracted to my soc prof!!)

What's important to me:

**To realize the limitations of my own perceptions and viewpoints

**To allow for the possibility of thoughts without value judgments

**To not stop asking why (bc thats me) but to continue to ask why even after i think i know

**To feel ok about feeling and thinking whatever i think and feel

**To let others have their own pain and their own judgments, even of me; to separate enough to view the space between their judgment and my existance

**To take care of myself

**To enjoy the beauty in the world and let it go; to realize that you dont need to contain something to appreciate it

yay that's my seven self-guidelines! feels good to have something organized to hold all of these ideas for me.

TWENTY ONE!!!!

Thu, 22 Dec 2005 06:45:15 GMT

most of my birthday is a blur, as it should be. i know it involved buying my first legal bottle of alcohol at midnight and then passing out in my friend kellis bed with her and her ghetto fabulous boyfriend and waking up to one of them rubbing my leg cuz they thought i was the other one hahaha. then there were margaritas with my mom, and sushi boats with my best friend, and apple martinis at a really really really offbeat random open mic bar with katrinca... and then getting really drunk and high with my childhood friends in piedmont and wandering around...and finding a whole bunch of mardi gra beads....

at one point my friend ashley decided to pole dance on a street sign, and then she fell and her legs were like wrapped around the pole and we saw a car coming and we thought it was so funny until we realized it was a cop car! so there i was with a big bag of alcohol and ashley's in a compromising position with a street sign and someone else is trying to take a picture of her and this cop pulls up and says, "how are you guys doing..." so ashleys like, "oh i just thought it would be a really funny picture to pose with this pole cuz i just got a new camera phone. how are you, sir?" and he was like, "well i was having a slow night, but you guys have brightened it up." ive never had to deal with cops stoned before, and piedmont cops never have anything to do. i was sure it was all over. then after a long pause he added, "seeing all of your smiling faces brightened up my night." asshole. its funny how repected cops are when half the time their job is just to drive around and mess with kids. i mean i respect some cops but piedmont cops are a joke. not to mention racist. if we'd been black id be in jail right now. anyway, i couldnt believe it when he drove off. must be birthday luck.

california is insane. i love it but im exhausted already!

what? diana is updating?

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 00:32:04 GMT

so, life. life is good. this semester i feel like i really had the chance to get myself together and figure out a lot of important things. and working at the new england center is simply an indescribable experience. i cant really believe im leaving. i love the kids i work with so much and there is no real way to say goodbye.

i really dont like moving out of this house. this has become our house and our little tiny strange girly family. this is our home!

why must i get so attached to things and then leave them? im glad ive found something else worth missing though. thats always a good thing.

and i like a boy. a unitarian boy! ive seen him twice. we talk till 2 every night. i wish he'd hurry up in inventing his teleporter. i could use some UU kisses at this moment.

those of u at hamilton, it will be really good to see you next semester. those of you in cali, it will be really good to see you IN A FEW DAYS! oh and guess what? diana is about to be 21 in a week. i sense much impending craziness this winter break. hehehe.

recently

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 02:56:03 GMT

ive started to think that maybe we're all just too collectively emotionally injured to be salvageable as a species. if we all keep failing to take care of ourselves and consequently keep hurting each other, we are just making it harder and harder for any good to come of humanity. maybe we're too far gone and we will just keep perpetuating the cycle, and thats why its spread to a global level... and maybe thats why people in america are so adamant about their political views because they know that the world needs saving somehow, when really it all starts with the individuals and most individuals are not capable of doing what they need to do.... something has to change cuz the road we're on doesnt look good. im disappointed and scared and feel really really discouraged about everything thats important to me. and that probably comes from me having too positive an outlook before, but its still hard.

100 fun fun questions... ok just wasting time.

Sat, 12 Nov 2005 23:13:23 GMT

1 fifth grade teacher's name: mrs. manolis and mrs. schnitzer. changed my life.

2 Last words you said: hi

3 Last song you sang: i do by lisa loeb

4 Last person you hugged: either meg or elaine. but its been too long! im not getting my 8 hugs a day lately. not good.

6 Last time you said I don't remember: what? oh, this afternoon.

9 What color socks are you wearing: none! scandalous.

10 What's under you bed right now?: backpacks with miscellaneous stuff in them

11 What time did you wake up today: almost 11 :D

12 Current taste: diet coke

13 Current hair: straight with a side part & nicely wavy at the bottom. my hair is actually being amazing today, which is ironic since im home sick and doing nothing

15 Current annoyance: the TV noise. i should prob go turn that off.

16 Current longing to see: u really wanna hear the list? well too bad cuz i dont really wanna type it!

17 Current desktop background: my so-called life pics <3

18 Current worry: good question. there are a few, some i dont wanna share, and some are detail stuff like homework and train tickets and plans and all that irritating stuff.

19 Current hate: strep throat

20 Current favorite article of clothing: PJs

21 Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex: arms, eyes, etc.

22 Last CD that you listened to: this is alice music volume 2

23 Favorite place to be: home, oakland, friends houses, hot tub, bed

24 Least favorite place: probably havent been there yet.

25 Time you wake up in the morning?: 6 if i havent done my hw, 8 if i have

27 Favorite color: lavender

28 Do you believe in an afterlife: still debating

30 Current favorite word/sayin: good lord... and im trying to bring back hella into my vocab

31 Favorite book: right now the celestine prophecy

32 Favorite season: i love them all. i really do.

33 One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: tracy

35 Where do you want to go for college?: um california. too bad that ships already sailed.

36 What is your career going to be? its a mystery

37 How many kids do you want: duno... one or two or three... sometimes u cant plan these things.

38 How many times do you want sex a week?: with who? very important part of the equation!

HAVE YOU EVER..

39 Said "I l love you" and meant it: yea. lots.

40 Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird.etc. what?

41 Been to New York: yep. dad lives in the city, i go to college upstate

42 Been to Florida: yea, choir tour eighth grade. leila stole my man. tehe.

43 Been to California: born and raised.

44 Been to Hawaii: yea :)

45 Been to Mexico: yep

46 Been to China: no

...47: has been deleted. ok

48 Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: in a sense

...49?? 50? 51? ok

52 Do you have a crush on someone: yea

54 Worst feeling in the world: hopeless

55 What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning: how much longer can i stay in bed?

56 How many rings before you answer: depends

59 Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: tigger!!

64 Do you do drugs?: not hard ones

67 What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use: fructise or whatever its called. very yummy smelling.

68 What are you most scared of: rejection, meaninglessness, lonliness, spiders

69 What clothes do you sleep in?: pj bottoms and tank top or other shirt

70 Who is the last person that called you: kelli

71 Where do you want to get married: dont know yet. UU church, prob, or some really amazing natural setting

72 If you could change anything about yourself what would that be: that i dont take care of myself well enough

73 Who do you hate: only 2 people, and for good reasons. i used to think i didnt hate anyone, but that turns out to be false.

74 Been In Love: oh yea

75 Are you timely or always late: late

76 Do you have a job: internship

77 Do you like being around people?: definitely. but i also need my alone time.

78 Best feeling in the world?: being loved and knowing it

79 Are you for world peace: i hope everyone is for world peace

80 Are you a health freak: no

81 Do you have a "Type" of person you always go after?: yes... but it is expanding very nicely

84 Ever afraid you'll never get married: yea, but im kinda afraid to get married too.

85 Do you want to get married: see 84

86 Do you want kids?: yes

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU..

87 cried: yea... the tigger movie was on... its very touching.

88 Bought Something: food

89 Gotten Sick: i am sick

90 Sang: of course

91 Said I Love You: yep

92 Wanted To Tell Someone You Liked them: kinda

93 Met Someone: hmm yea

94 Moved On: ok...

95 Talked To Someone: uh huh

96 Had A Serious Talk: come on its diana (that would be a yes)

97 Missed Someone: always

98 Hugged Someone: no! :(

99 Yelled at Someone: no

100 Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be with: im not sure

stole it from carrie!

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 19:55:50 GMT

ONE: Five random facts about me
1) i went to five proms
2) i once narrowly escaped being bitten by a rattle snake
3) im on diary number 35
4) i have a little sis from vietnam
5) 68 days till i turn 21!!!

TWO!: Ten things that make me happy
1) photo booths
2) philosophical conversations
3) tigger
4) redwood trees
5) pajamas
6) when a song perfectly fits a moment
7) friday afternoons
8) street lamps at night during a misty rain
9) baking cookies
10) home

everyone should do this one!

its been a while since ive done something this pointless... its about time

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 19:38:57 GMT

bold the ones that apply (dooo it its fun)

Graduated High School.
Had detention.
Participated in a "spirit day" at school.
Skipped classes.
Failed classes.
Taken a college level course.
Dropped out of school.
Made out with someone of the opposite sex.
Made out with someone of the same sex.
Wondered about your sexuality.
Lost your virginity.
Dyed your hair.
Got a tattoo.
Had something pierced.
Gone fishing.
Gone hunting.
Gone skiing.
Been sailing.
Gone surfing in California.
Ran a marathon.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Been in an earthquake.
Lost someone you loved.
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Smoked cigarettes.
Dealt drugs.
Done hard drugs.
Overdosed.
Had a drug or alcohol problem.
Hurt yourself intentionally.
Had an eating disorder.
Been suicidal.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Been inside a mental hospital.
Been in rehab.
Collected something really stupid.
Watched four movies in one night.
Gone more than 24 hours without sleep.
Lied to someone.
Your parents got divorced.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Flown on a plane.
Been in a mosh pit.
Helped a stranger.
Spun turn tables.
Written a 10 page letter.
Had a best friend.
Shoplifted something.
Been to jail.
Got in trouble for something you didn't do.
Stolen books from the library.
gone to a different country.
Watched the "Harry Potter" movies.
Had an online diary.
Fired a gun.
Gambled in a casino.
Had a yardsale.
Had a lemonde stand.
Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Gone to seaworld.
Voted for American/Australian Idol.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Really wanted someone you couldn't have.
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument.
Had more than 5 IM's/online conversations going at once.
Been in a fist fight.
Suffered any form of abuse.
Had a hamster.
Pet a wild animal.
Used a credit card.
Known someone with HIV or AIDS.
Been in a school play.
Your parents sent you to a shrink.
Been handcuffed.
Taken pictures with a webcam.
Started a fire.
Done surveys like this to pass the time.

gilmore girls...

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 01:43:38 GMT

"stop screaming 'its your butt!!'"

GAAAAAAAA

Tue, 04 Oct 2005 19:07:01 GMT

since livejournal is aparently the way we all communicate, here is what i have to say:

josh and i were discussing how im always somehow partially involved in drama even though i hate it. today i realized why: i am the enabler( a term usually used for people like the wife of the alcoholic dad in a disfunctional family). i let the drama happen and i dont tell people when it is not ok and i just try to smooth things over for people. well, im not doing it anymore. i let people know what is not ok and now i am taking myself out of the equation. let me know if you want to have a clear, open, civilized conversation. until then, im sorry but theres nothing i can do. i have other things i need to focus my energy on.

(if u dont know what im talking about then im prob not talking to you so no worries)

im a maniac! maaaniac!

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 04:16:51 GMT

ok so i had ONE beer just now to wind down my aweful monday, and now im allll crazy!!! weeee ok so aparently im going to visit hamilton this weekend! how fantastic! im glad i got that settled. anddd yea i duno i have a lot to say but not to like the whole world so ok im gonna go be a nut somewhere else lalala

light up, light up, as if you had a choice

Wed, 21 Sep 2005 01:42:18 GMT

things are good. overall.

im happy i joined the gym near our house :) the guys who work there are cute enough to brighten up a stressful day of grad school classes and moody children. the girls i live with make me happy too. comisserating, sex talks, causing scenes everywhere we go... its endless fun!

josh came to visit last weekend. it was a really good weekend & it reconnected me with the world outside of NECC. we spent lots of time in boston... visited sam @ his school which was sooo weird/cool... oh and i became really obsessed with antarctica after seeing an imax movie about it saturday night hehe. seriously i could go off about how cool antarctica is for like hours. if you're interested just ask. :P

a few things are still hard for me, but i think progress (although terribly slow at times) is being made. i sure hope so.

NECC, Southborough, and the damn internet guys

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 22:24:25 GMT

i'm a few weeks into my semester at the new england center for children, and i'm already exhausted... im also already in love with the kids im working with. sooo cute. autism is a really really challenging disorder, dont get me wrong... the kids can be aggressive and violent, but there is something so endearing about them. especially christopher. he's my favorite :P

so i havent been on line much since i got here... thats because the internet in my room doesnt work and they have come out 3 times to "try" to fix it but they just want to blame my computer even though my computer works fine in other rooms... it makes me really upset that they won't help me when i need help. very hard for diana. so who knows if/when i will ever have the internet back grrrr.

im living with three really wonderful girls from hamilton in a nice big house all to ourselves. its pretty much the coolest set up ever, and we are really fantastically dorky psych majors & so we get really excited about analyzing people hehe. but im sure we're gonna drive each other insane if its always just the 4 of us for the whole semester... so visit us! that means you! ;-)

last weekend we went on a trip to boston (about 25 miles away) and it was definitely fun. this weekend we're supposed to go to the cape but im kinda happy relaxing here.

i miss california. of course.

more later, maybe!

summer of 2005

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 07:15:29 GMT

this is the most intense summer of my life. last summer was the best summer ever... this one is just intense. i basically am just going from one deep, exhausting conversation to another and from one intense experience to another, with some work and sleep in between. im learning soo much and im just overwhelmed by the possibilities and hard things about being a person. soooo many interesting thoughts lately... maybe i will share some of them later.

sigh

Sun, 17 Jul 2005 19:47:35 GMT

when it rains, it really fucking pours. fuck.

survey addiction! this ones not even that interesting. just posting it cuz i did it.

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 07:20:50 GMT

Body: *Time started: 12:02 pst
*Name: diana
*Single or Taken: single
*Sex: female
*Birthday: dec. 20
*Sign: sagitarius

*Siblings: 2 older brothers, one hellllof cute little sis
*Hair color: brown
*Eye color: brown
*Shoe size: 9
*Height: 5'7
*Innie or Outie: innie
*What are you wearing right now: pjs, tank top
*Righty or lefty: righty
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~Relationships~
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*Who are your closest friends?: im really supposed to list them all?? rediculous.
*Do you have a bf or gf: no. hence the single statement.
*Best place to go for a date: depends
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*Where is your fav place to shop?: victorias sectret
*Do you have any tattoos or piercings? 6 piercings (ears) and one tattoo
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favs
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*Color: lavender
*Number(s): 2,7
*Food: yum
*Boys name: dunno. i would say josh but it would go to someone's head
*Girls name: lena
*Subject in school: english
*Animal: dolphin
*Drink: sex on the beach haha actually i dunno
*Celebrity: blah
*Sport: basketball
*Veggie: broccoli
*Fruit: nectarine
*Fast food place: your mom
*Place to visit: havent been there yet probably
*Month: december
*Juice: grapefruit, mango
*Finger: middle haha why not
*Ice Cream: depends on mood
*Breakfast: eggs yum
*Perfume/Cologne: dont really know. havent smelled many.
*Favorite cartoon character: strawberry shortcake
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Have u ever?
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*Given anyone a bath: sure
*Bungee jumped: nope
*Made yourself throw-up: yea
*Gone skinny dipping: ? i forget
*Been in the opposite sex's bathroom: uh huh
*Eaten a dog biscuit: nnnnnyes. when i was little. *ashamed*
*Put your tongue on a frozen pole: nope. come on now.
*Loved someone that made you cry: yea
*Played truth or dare: duh
*Been in a physical fight: yep
*Been in a police car: nope
*Been on a plane: yea
*Been in a sauna: yea
*Been in a hot tub: yea mmm
*Swam in the ocean: yea
*Fallen asleep in school: haha yes
*Broken someone's heart: hope not
*Cried when someone died: ok wow dumb question
*Flashed someone: hm dunno
*Lied: yes
*Laughed so hard you fell off your chair: mmhmm
*Saved e-mails: yea duh
*Wished you were someone else: yea
*Wished you were a member of the opposite sex: yea for a sec
*Made out with JUST a friend?: haha of course
*Been in love?: x2
*Been cheated on?: yes sir
*Done something you regret?: yes.
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First Thing That Comes to Mind
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*Red: passion
*Blue: serenity
*Happy: peace
*Cow: moo
*Greenland: cold
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random….
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*Your good luck charm: chalice necklace
*Stupidest thing you have ever done: wow hard to choose
*Your most prized possession: my diaries
*Last thing you ate: popcorn
*Fave song: cant choose
*Best Thing that has happened to you this week?: hmm... tube slide.
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have u had…?
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*Chicken pox: yes
*Sore Throat: yes
*Cold: yea
*Stitches: no?
*Bloody nose: yea
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do u?
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*Believe in love at first sight: this again?
*Enjoy parks: who doesnt
*Like picnics: sure
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Do You/Are You...
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*Do you like yourself: yes, but not enough apparently
*Do you get along with your family: yes and no
*Do you do drugs?: some
*Do you color your hair: not anymore
*Do you like peircings below the waist?: sure
*Habla español?: not really
*Stolen anything ever?: yep
*Obsessive: um, not really
*Anorexic: nope
*Depressed? somewhat
*Suicidal?: no
-----------------------------------------
Final Questions
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In the opposite sex...
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*Cute and mysterious or wild and sexy: all of the above please (who says you cant be all of those things? silly q)
*Dressy or casual: casual
*Dark or blonde hair: dark
*Long or short hair: longer hair is fun to play with, but i dont like men with ponytails or anything like that. not my thing. short hair is fuzzy and can be cuute too
*Curly or straight hair: wavy
*Dark or light eyes: any color
*Long or short nails: short
*Hat or no hat: depends
*Good or bad: huh?
*Hair up or down: umm down
*Jewelery or none: depends
*Tall or short: tall
*Pants or dress: pants hehe
*Tan or fair: tan
*Freckles or none: none
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*What do you notice first about a girl/boy: depends. how they feel to be around.
*Shy or outgoing: a little bit of both
*What do you like the most in a girl/boy: um its complicated i think
*what time is it now: 12:20

lalalaaa

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 04:39:10 GMT

1. How do you spell your name backwards?
anaid

2. Where were your parents raised?
mom- san diego.
dad- born washington cd, but raised in japan and then the phillippines ( i cant spell)

3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
ummmmmm dont remember

4. What's your favorite restaurant?
mimosa cafe

5. Last time you swam in a pool?
the other day... sunday yea

6. Have you ever been in a school play?
a bunch, mostly crappy ones

7. How many kids do you want?
a few

8. Type of music you dislike most?
screamo and really bad musaac... but thats not really music, so thats why. i like all actual music.

9. Are you registered to vote?
yes sir

10. Do you have cable?
no tv. hippie parents.

11. Have you ever ridden on a moped?
it took me a while to figure out what this was asking. and no.

12. Ever prank call anybody?
hahah yep yep

13. Best friends?
yep, i have those.

14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
only if i was going insane, or had conquered my greatest external fear, or didnt care about living.

15. Furthest place you ever traveled?
i guess europe

16. Do you have a garden?
sorta. its more like a self-growing garden

17. What's your favorite comic strip?
calvin and hobbes, still

18. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?
yeah, and lots of diffenent harmonies too, and the national anthem of other countries. im a choir girl...

19. Bath or shower, morning or night?
shower, whenever i want one

20. Best movie you've seen in the PAST MONTH?
crash. saw it twice. go see it right now please.

21. Favorite pizza topping?
artichoke hearts

22. Chips or popcorn?
popcorn please (unless its hot chips with lime!)

23. What color lipstick do you usually wear?
lipgloss, please!

24. Have you ever peed somewhere besides the toilet?
yeah. in fact i did last week, and i hit my eye on a tree...

25. Have you ever been in a talent show?
haha to carrie about the lame church tallent shows. ive been in lots of those, once because of a dare...

26. Orange Juice or apple?
orange juice = morning
apple juice = afternoon

27. Who was the last person you went out to dinner with and where did you dine?
my family last night cuz jon got out of the hospital and we were "celebrating" except he's still depressed so it was kinda weird.

28. Favorite type chocolate bar?
twix for sure

29. When was the last time you voted at the polls?
never

30. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
like... a while.

31. Have you ever won a trophy?
yea, but just the kind they give you when you play sports as a kid even if you suck.

32. Are you a good cook?
im fairly good... im not a culinary artist or anything

33. Do you know how to pump your own gas?
hahaha, you should have seen me trying to pump gas in ashley's car high the other night...

34. Ever order an article from an infomercial?
um no

35. Sprite or 7-up?
sprite

36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work?
nope

37. Last thing you bought at a Walgreens?
we tried to go buy alcohol there a few weeks ago haha

38. Ever thrown up in public?
yea. i dont reccomend it

39. Would you prefer being a millionaire or find true love?
are you kidding? is this really a question?? lets see.... best thing ever or a bunch of unfulfilling junk? i guess you can do some cool stuff with money, but it cant buy looovee

40. Do you believe in love at first sight?
depends on how you define love. to me, no

41. Can exs be friends?
yea, for sure. just depends on the kind of relationship they had and all that.

42. Who was the last person you visited in a hospital?
my brother on sunday

43.Did you have a lot of hair as a baby?
haha yea

44. What message is on your answering machine left for you?
i have 16 right now and they are funny... most of them are from jonah

45. What's your favorite color?
lavender

46. What was the name of your first pet?
fritz

47. What's in your backpack?
a nalgene full of vodka and my address book and a beer

48. Favorite thing to do before bedtime?
hahaha... oh, um, talk on the phone

49. What is one thing you are grateful for today?
tomorrow being friday

50. What are you thinking about?
way too much. must think less.